20/03/2010

IT'S BLOGGING TIME!

So it's the weekend, THANK GOD!
I'm so tired it's ridiculous, but only 7 school days then 19 glorious days of sleep and eh..revising :/
Meh, I hate exams, especially French oral exams :/
To be honest I kind of hate school, but yet I keep feeling really nostalgic about it. I just feel like there's so much pressure at the moment. With every teacher telling us about the nearing exams and how this counts as 50% of our final grade and stuff like that. It's tiring. It feels like I'm constantly doing homework, worring about unfinished homework or recieving more homework. It's ridiculous and I'm so tired in the physical and mental sense. Plus taking triple science and JSLA and two languages is really starting to build up against me.

But then comes the nostalgic feeling. The realisation has kinda dawned on me the past couple of weeks that I only have about a year left of compulsary school. That after that it's time to go out into the "big wide world" amnd face adulthood, and to be honest that's not something I want to do. I don't want to have to worry about Bills and a job and all that stuff. Plus I have no clue whatsoever about what I want to do. I swear if any more of my family asks me what I want to do after school I'll throtle them. And I guess I've sort of relied on my friends alot, when I feel like I have no energy at all I'll be like "Oh I can't leave Mel/Lydia/Ellie/Phoebe in French/Physics/German/History" plus my friends actaully make my school days enjoyable.

I guess I'm having a breakdown. All the work has finally got to me, most nights I feel like dissolving into tears about everything, this is kinda like what happened to Olivia the other day. But instead of in front of people mine's over the internet and through writting rather than a physical breakdown. Maybe I shouldn't be repressing my feelings this much, it can't be healthy.

If you have actually read through that incredibly long and boring spiel about my life. Then I applaud you and apologize. I'm gonna go and read.

Bye.


Currently Listening to - Remembering Sunday ~ All Time Low
Currently Reading - The Fury (in the Vampire Diaries series) ~ L.J. Smith